Anxiety and panic attacks

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I finished sorting through all my clothes. 

It doesn’t look it. But there is ample space now. 

The clothes aren’t all pushed against one another and it’s easy to rifle through to find what your looking for 

While working in this I was waiting for my shopping from woolies to arrive 

It was here before I had finished. 

I use the door dash app and they’re very good at keeping you updated and are very prompt. 

I’m very had shoppers ring and ask if I would accept a product because the one I ordered wasn’t available 

This had been great for me. 

I’ve always been a homebody and during the early years of marriage had to be. Fuel prices were high, so I would only go into town once a week. Do everything I needed and then back home. 

I’ve never been confident driving too far from home. Basically because I was prevented from doing so 

My parents were very strict and I pretty much never left home alone I think this has been a big part of my lack of confidence 

I wasn’t able to build it in my formative years 

As I got older it slowly got worse. 

It hasn’t helped that I’ve been hit from behind three times in the last seven years. 

It also doesn’t help that I have begun to get lost. Even going to my parents house, which I lived in, I got lost three times last year. 

I have been known to ring hubby in years because I can’t remember how to get home 

It’s not frequent but enough to make me nervous 

My friends know this and will always pick me up when we go out together. 

And was why they drove me to the hospital to visit and pick up hubby 

So being able to do my shopping on line had made me a much happier and not as anxious all the time. 

It’s actually one of the reasons I stopped going to the pool. Between all the road works, detour signs and driving in the dark, I’d start to get anxious the night before 

I know I’m being silly but I honestly can’t help it. 

Last week I left the house just one day. To the post office which is across the highway from me and to the pharmacy, which is a 5-10 minute drive down the highway. 

Short simple drives. 

At least being an  anxious person prone to panic attacks is much easier in the time of internet shopping. I don’t know how I would of been if I didn’t have that 

Today’s doings

​today I had been inspired by a couple of fellow bloggers. 

I had all the fixings to made some granola bars 

I added chocolate on top and the boys have already made a dent of the large pile. They had too the lid wouldn’t close on the container 

As the oven was going to be used I decided to make the most of it. 

Next in bread 

I forgot to slash the top and it’s a bit of a funny  shape, because of the brown paper I had lined the Dutch oven with 

I also made made a pasta bake. Using the leftovers of the pasta I made the other day 

I have also started to sort my wardrobe. 

I’ve  lost weight and have gone down a dress size. 

All old , too big, clothes have been put into a pile to be used as cleaning rags at the shed. They’re not good enough for donations 

All, not so old , clothes have been kept as they’re still great for wearing around the house. 

I have finished one part of the wardrobe and will tackle the next tomorrow 

And now I’m trying to crochet but Trixie has other ideas 

She likes it when I finally sit 

Australia Day

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Jobs getting done

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This is the perfect picture for how I feel 

I’ve cleaned all the cobwebs from the back veranda. 

Swept all the leaves that the gale force winds had deposited 

Washed all of Teddy’s bedding. It’s dry now all i have to do is put it all back 

Dragged the hose around watering all pots under the front veranda. 

As well the normal daily chores 

Finally after all that I had a nice cool shower 

That pretty much finished me off. 

All fibro warriors know that showering uses up lots of our energy. 

It’s still really hot outside. My neighbour gave me some herbs to plant. He’s a lovely man. All our neighbours are 

I’ll let it cool a tad before I go out to plant them out. 

Crafting is continuing. 

I’ve cut the scraps I found the other day, into 3 inch squares 

I’ve pined some to my hexi papers and cut off the corners to make the hexi shape. I’ve even started to sew some, adding to the pile ready to sew 

When I get sick of that I change back to the crochet. 

That blanket is getting much bigger now. 

I think 2026 is the year of finishing off WIP’s and busting my stash. 

That a good thing indeed 

Day one

​after all the carfuffle of last week we finally arrived at DDay 

Both Ana and Georgia were dropped off in the morning. 

Grandma had to set the alarm to give herself time to get organised 

Fruit was cut up and in Ana’s snack box. 

 Variety of small packets containing chips, and crackers 

Her big bottle was filled with water and it was all set in the coffee table ready for her to just pick and eat 

I set up a change table section so I wouldn’t have to bend 

And the new baby seat was brought out into the living room

I did but nappies but I got the wrong size. Lots were packed into her bag so nothing to worry about 

The morning went very smoothly 

And both girls were happy 

I love that they both look at me while taking the photo 

Soon enough Georgie was showing signs of needed her nap. 

She pretty much cuddled into me and drifted of to sleep 

Ana must of felt a little out of the loop and wanted cuddles too 

When I wasn’t taking pictures my arm had to be around her  which grandma was very pleased to do 

Love holding and looking at a sleeping baby. 

Once she was well and truly asleep I popped her into the cot. 

Ana and I then spent some time together doing whatever she wanted to do. 

Georgia slept for almost three hours 

She woke happy. 

I changed her and when she decided she wanted her bottle I defrosted some and started to feed her. 

No way was she going to accept the bottle 

I was warned that she might but I thought that was because of all the sights and sounds of daycare 

Nope she didn’t want anything to do with it. 

Her mummy did say she liked eating and sent a pic of what she was using 

I did grab a few of the pouches. She nearly ate a whole pouch. Which I was very happy with. 

But she still wanted milk. I knew this as she was turning her head towards me when I held her. 

I was able to distract her for a while but eventually she was very upset and nothing I did helped. 

In desperation I rang her daddy and asked him to come over as soon as he was done. 

Georgia was taken home to mummy and fed. I was relieved 

Ana stayed because she wanted to see grandpa 

This morning mummy had organised new tests for the bottle and Georgia fed and fell asleep 

Fingers crossed that the issue is now fixed and she will once again accept the bottle. 

Grandma does not want her being that upset ever again. 

I do not do well listening to one I love be so upset. 

Resting. Kinda

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This morning I had a sleep in. I didn’t get to sleep until late last night because of the usual reasons. 

I had planned on resting today in preparation for tomorrow. 

Not only will Ana come to visit, but her sister will too. 

My first double trouble day was supposed to have been last Friday, but we all know what happened. 

Instead.today, I spent the day cleaning spiderwebs, dusting and vacuuming 

I don’t know why but this year has been bad for spiders. I can clean a web today and tomorrow it will be back. 

Even my car needs cleaning of the little buggers building endeavours. 

Now I’m done for the day I’m continuing to increase the size of this granny square blanket. It will be added to the pile for the farm. 

Hopefully the meds work better and I get some sleep. I’m going to need to be on my toes 

Getting things done

​this morning hubby drove me to the doctors to get a fasting blood test  

There were quite a few tests she asked for so they took two vials full. 

Then a urine test was asked for, so she gave me the little plastic jar and sent me off in my way. 

Once I had been totally bled of all liquids I left.  

I had scripts to drop off at my pharmacy 

Home again after that I turned in the radio in the kitchen and went to work. 

There were plums that were very ripe so they were pitted and cut up. I also had half a tub of blackberries that had been pushed to the back and forgotten. They were added to the plums. 

We had the last of the oranges from our tree and some mandarins. They were all cut up as well

They’re now in the freezer for future use. I didn’t get the seeds out of the citrus because I figured that when I defrost them they’ll be squishy and easier to de pip. 

I then tackled a bag of peppers from the market garden across the road. I cleaned and cut them up. I had half an onion so that got sliced. 

Some tomatoes that had ripened too much for salads or sandwiches, so they were put in also 

I went into the freezer to get the last of the leek and cherry tomatoes to add as well. 

It’s all cooked up and ready to eat. It’s a great side dish to steak or any BBQ. Plus I’ll freeze some for in the slow cooker to use during winter. 

I then turned to the excess of eggs. I got some silverbeet from the garden. The last packet of feta cheese and the eggs to make my version of spinach pie 

My eggs. They look like peaches in syrup lol 

I ended up using 20 eggs in just one pie 

I’ve messaged the boys telling them it’s ready to eat. 

Finally I’ve organised my crafting corner. 

I purchased a coffee table with a lift up top 

Once closed all my craft paraphernalia is hidden. Making it look neater. Not to mention little people won’t be able to get at it. 

Georgia won’t stay a baby for very long. So I’m getting ahead  start with the baby proofing 

I also have a basket to store the actual WIP’s I’m working on. It will be easy to pick up the whole basket and put it up out of reach 

As you can just see, Trixies bed with her toys are just visible in the left corner. 

This too will once again be moved when we have a mobile baby. 

It’s now one in the afternoon and I’m very tired. 

I went to bed last night after midnight. I was staying up to see this 

You could actually see it with the naked eye. Not this brilliantly unfortunately but once it was viewed through the phone, magical 

We have been so lucky to have seen so many Auroras. It’s been one good view every year for the last three years 

I still would love to see the northern lights one  day, but for now I’m just happy to have seen this. 

Right now, life is good in the nest