I’m that frog

you know that story. The one that says,

if you put a frog in water and slowly bring it to boil.

the frog will die as it doesn’t feel the water getting hotter.

pits not true. The frog will jump out

but

I’m not as clever as that frog.

for the last few weeks Ive not been sleeping well at all

I just can’t fall asleep tossing and turning for most of the night

I’ve been getting up so hubby can sleep.

meanwhile I’m so tired that I walk around like a zombie

yesterday it finally dawned on me

my pain levels have been slowly climbing up again

I’ve been on these meds for a year now and it’s been at least the

last ten of them that I have been able to actually do things and be active again

now because I’m doing more and more I’ve been getting pain

slowly it’s been disrupting sleep patterns,

there are things that are getting hard to do again

and yesterday I found myself looking for things to eat. All day long

that’s when I realised that my body was trying to tell me something

I spent most of year just sitting and listening to my audiobook.

and not doing anything else.

lve even stopped knitting as it was hurting my shoulders and back

this has upset me more that you can imagine

I don’t want to go back to where I was before these meds

I want to be able to do things around the house

I want to be able to play with the girls

and I don’t want to have to use my cane again That’s what he caused my shoulder to

hurt so much.

live got a small hope that it’s worse right now because of the weather changes.

the day we planted the seedlings was pretty much the last nice day.

its gone back to cold, wet and windy!

last night we let the fire go out so we could clean it out

I wasn’t going to relight it until later. But it’s so cold I can feel it in my bones

i really really hope that once the weather settles into its summery pattern, my pain levels will drop again

please keep your fingers crossed for me.