I took a nostalgic walk through my old earthmama blog and remembered the days when I was productive and busy and happy. I miss the days spent outside puttering in the garden growing lots of food and preserving my harvest to be consumed during the cold days of winter. I miss starting new projects weather they be quilts or knitting or crochet.
I miss working outside the home and going to the gym. Although I never though I would miss that!
But most of all I miss the old me, the one that would try to learn something and do it saying to myself how hard could it be.
Now the how hard could it be comes from my health, this disease that has taken my old life and left me with this.
I am angry and sad. I know I am better off than a lot of people suffering CFS I am grateful that I am able to still do all I can. But today I am having a pity party and I just don't know how to stop.
I have been out today and taken hubby to collect a car from dandenong but I was planing to go do a shop. But that now has to wait till tomorrow as the little energy I had has been used up.
This is me now, only so many spoons and I have to be careful how I use them.