Relapse

I’ve gone from a flare, to a crash to now a total relapse 

I’m as sick, sore and exhausted as I ever was 

I’ve gain weight from lack of mobility which has lead to depression 

More pain and even less likelihood of exercise 

The only silver lining is crocheting 

I’ve finished 70 squares for my huge camping blanket 

I’ll see how big it is when I get to a hundred and thirty and I lay it all out 

Working on this baby boy blanket for someone arriving in September 

And bought this lot on line from oz yarn 

Melody loves my callthe   midwife i made for myself and uses it whenever she’s here. 

She calls it the rainbow blanket lol 

So I’m going to make one for her and her sister each in greens and pinks 

Im hoping to slowly start getting better. But I’m not pushing. Everytime I feel a little better I go full on and crash 

Back to square one 

Meanwhile. Everything that’s going round I’m catching. So avoiding people as much as I can right now 

I hate being back here 

I hate that this disease rules my life 

I hate that I’m not reliable anymore

But I’ll have my pity party and then I’ll get going 

Because that’s what I do 

Hope your all well

See ya xxx