Thursday, May 9, 2019

Relapse

I’ve gone from a flare, to a crash to now a total relapse 
I’m as sick, sore and exhausted as I ever was 
I’ve gain weight from lack of mobility which has lead to depression 
More pain and even less likelihood of exercise 
The only silver lining is crocheting 
I’ve finished 70 squares for my huge camping blanket 
I’ll see how big it is when I get to a hundred and thirty and I lay it all out 


Working on this baby boy blanket for someone arriving in September 


And bought this lot on line from oz yarn 
Melody loves my callthe   midwife i made for myself and uses it whenever she’s here. 
She calls it the rainbow blanket lol 
So I’m going to make one for her and her sister each in greens and pinks 
Im hoping to slowly start getting better. But I’m not pushing. Everytime I feel a little better I go full on and crash 

Back to square one 
Meanwhile. Everything that’s going round I’m catching. So avoiding people as much as I can right now 
I hate being back here 
I hate that this disease rules my life 
I hate that I’m not reliable anymore
But I’ll have my pity party and then I’ll get going 
Because that’s what I do 
Hope your all well
See ya xxx




6 comments:

  1. Oh my gosh I admire your skills. My crafting urges left me in my forties and I have little patience for that now.

    Julie

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  2. Sorry your not doing well.
    Coffee is on

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  3. Maybe I know more than most how hard things are for you. When I go to a pain specialist, I look at the other patients and wonder what they're going through. Sometimes I see it on their faces. Othertimes I don't, but I'm don't know what they means.

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    1. Only another pain sufferer truly understands. Hugs to you xx

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  4. I like your crocheting, but I'm so sorry to read that you are not doing so well at the moment.
    Sending healing and positive thoughts.

    All the best Jan

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  5. So sorry to hear you've gone into relapse. Thank goodness you can still crochet. You crochet beautifully.
    Get better soon!

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